Unfortunately this is not a happy post. Today I'm being honest with myself and with you all.
My close friends already know that 2015 wasn’t exactly my favorite year. In fact it was certifiably the worst year I think I ever weathered.
With an eviction notice (not by our fault), emptied savings to buy a house we didn't plan on buying, my family moving away, my best friend moving away, two miscarriages, and my husband being in the hospital for two weeks, almost died, still doing IV antibiotics at home…..I’ve frankly had it.
Many people tell me that God has a plan and a purpose for all this suffering, I don’t know what that is yet, maybe I never will, maybe bad things just happen. Whether or not my suffering was divinely orchestrated or it was just the result of a marred and fallen world, I know I do have a chance to grow from it. I hope someday soon I can look back and realize what can be learned, or how I matured, or that I helped someone go through something similar because I can relate...or something. But right now, I'm just hurting.
All this is a prelude into this photoshoot I’ll be sharing. I took a risk, I shot what was on my heart and that was sorrow. I believe real art is created when the artist takes a risk and brings their life and emotions into their work. Because it's honest, it's real and it's vulnerable.
So please enjoy, or don’t, if it makes you sad, that’s alright. It's ok to be sad.
[I will probably be talking technicalities and equipment for this shoot in a another post, especially if anyone specifically requests it. But right now, that’s not my goal.I will say that this is 90% film]
Amber was a fantastic model and she gave me exactly what I wanted for this shoot. I’m not exactly the most expressive person with my emotions and she helped me express them the best way I know how, through my art.
I want to say how grateful I am for all the clients I had the joy of working with this year. I'm grateful that I have found such sweet dedication from many family members and friend during such a hard year. I'm grateful that I am ever loved and that I get to love some pretty incredible people. Life will go on, and hard times don't last forever.
Bring it on 2016.